With this headache/migraine that I have tonight, I don't think I will accomplish much. I'm just glad to be back on to where I want to be. Of everything I have read, it isn't just new writers that goes through this. Even famous author apparently go through this. I guess as of right now I'm glad I'm not famous or on a deadline which most author have once they have contracts to write books.
Right now I'm a little bit focused on getting my son to his first day of kindergarten and dealing with soccer, which hopefully starts next week for practices anyway. I have also been dealing with seasonal allergies and asthma attacks that come along with those allergies.
I think tonight I will head to bed an hour earlier than I normally do. Have to be up early so hubby can go to bed by 9 a.m. if he doesn't sleep tonight that is, so he gets enough sleep for work tomorrow night. Hate that the hubby works rotating shifts and every month it changes. One month he works nights, that's this month and next month he will go back to days for a month. Crappy schedule, plus he also is working every Saturday he has off this month. He does it all to support his family.
I have to say that it was awful when he got laid off in June with the rest of the company, which including at least 3 plants in our area, 2 close by not even 5 minutes away from our home, and the other was maybe a good hour away. All this without warning. The plant my husband worked at had maybe an hour to get their personal belongs and had to get out. My husband had called in sick that day. They it has been 2 months and none have yet to receive their last pay.
Luckily, though, my husband was back to work within three weeks of all this happening. A good job with good benefits, but crappy hours. We barely get to see him.
I guess I should be glad we have some sort of income in our household. I know there are families out there without incomes. I don't believe I know any of them personally, at least not to my knowledge. Some of them I can't be sorry for. Some of those people out there without income comes down to being their own fault. Yes, the economy is bad. No, there isn't many jobs out there. But can they say that they really have tried? All will say yes, most in reality probably haven't. Those are the ones that want to make mega bucks for doing nothing.
I'm sorry, but if you can get even a part time job working fast food that makes minimum wage, then hey it is an income. I wish financially, it would be best for me to go back to work. I would love nothing more than just to get out of the house and be around adults without my 2 little loves under foot, but for our family it isn't in the cards.
That is why I write. I have loved to write since I was a young teen. I started about age 13 or 14. I never knew anything really about getting published before. I didn't have access at home to the internet. I come from a mid-income family. I now live as a mid-income family. I wanted to go to college. I did so for 1 year. In the major I was able to work as a classroom assistant without having a degree, but when I couldn't get hired for a position in the field I figured it wouldn't be the right field for me.
I tried doing an online school while planning my wedding to become a bridal consultant, I was 23 at the time, when I couldn't afford to pay for that anymore, I stopped. I really want to try again, but now with 2 kids and only one income it makes it hard to afford it. Especially, when you are sitting on 3 cars that breaks down so often.
Right now I run a mini van. I hate the thing with a passion. My husband picked out after he wrecked our only vehicle at the time. We found out a few weeks after the purchase that it had problems and the check engine light had electrical tape over and you couldn't see it in the daylight. After that my husband has been through 3 trucks now. He bought one and just before that one died he traded that and a few hundred bucks for another truck, newer than his was at the time, but in crappier shape. He had also taken over his friends truck and was fixing that as well. When he couldn't get that to stay running he just gave it away.
The third vehicle is my beloved car. I love my Ford Focus, but when we bought it it had problems. I wasn't listened to when I said something wasn't right and low-and-behold it died on me while I had both kids with me along the highway.
Luck for me I'm a daddy's girl, and my daddy does a lot for me when he can. He is also a pretty good DIY mechanic, he use to repair tracker trailer trucks when I was little.
Everyone thinks writers come from a money background, but let me just say. I love to write. Whether or not I ever get published by a big time publishing company or I have to find a way to come up with the money to self-publish on amazon.com or where ever, if I even get to do that. It doesn't matter. I write for myself. I don't write for you, the reader. I can only hope that you love, like at the very least, what I have to say and what I put out for the world to see.
Do I want to have tons of money? Yeah, who wouldn't. It would mean our household be financially stable for a change. That I know my kids are getting everything they need. Who cares about wants. I would know my children would have money for college. (My son has an expensive goal of becoming a paleontologist. My daughter hasn't decided like my son did. Yet.)
I am also a person who would love to give to all kinds of different charities, but I don't have the extra money most of the time. Expenses come first and play and helping others come last. Charities is one of the main reasons I want to get out there, get published and sell. Yes, I want to pay bills. Yes, I would like to purchase a house that better fits our family than the place we own at the moment. Yes, I would like for my husband and I to purchase good vehicles so we aren't wasting money fixing our vehicles with every single paycheck. Yes, I want to put money into both my kids savings account and start a retirement account my us. I would also like to give more to charities that mean a lot to me.
In case your wondering what kind of charities I would support; those are just about any cancer charity, I have been touched by cancer of different kinds, not myself, but through my family, I support anything with children, I had a friend effected by domestic abuse, so I would definitely support them, I am all for equal rights for everyone, and anything to do with education. I also try to be environmentally aware. I am also a supporter for our troops.
I hope this gives you a better insight to who I am. I try and be truthful about everything. Sometimes I can be too truthful. I am in no way religious in any of the norm religions. I am not a religious activist. I will not hone my religion on you, so please don't push yours on me. I am who I am, and that's the way I will be.
Thank you for reading, and good night readers!
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